2dae it started with a rush,i was getting late 4 sch as usual but then im always the lucky one to smuggle through the prefects in order no to get detention. lucky me right hahas....2dae sch started off with science lessons my favourite 4 tis yr weird rite but nvm its still by favourite.after sci was ms tan's lesson english oso my favourite...at least 4 that period ms tan nv scold me so i was quite happy bout that then when i was copying the corrections written on the board,eugene pang suddenly shouted frm behind that i was blocking his view n i was quite furious at it so i decided to sit on the floor to writ since he is discriminating me. why do i sae that? coz zabir sat at the place where i'm sitted n he nv complian n plus zabir was much taller than me.i really dont understand y he so damn hate mi? have i done anything wrong to him? or maybe in some ways i had offended him?? but at least he can dont sae things that will hurt my morally in my heart right?y is he so bad?? seeing me being hurt makes him happy izzit??sigh...then after eng was geog erm...at least geog is better i get to shout out the answer correctly hahas at least this makes me abit happier.as usual, mother tongue n music was boring but then i wa quite sad when i heard that we will be having another music lesson 4 the rest of this year.sigh...assembly boring...exams briefing...like we nv had exams b4 still must have briefing but then luckily it ended quite earlier.after assembly was rise. this is where evrything got worse. ms tan came in toking bout resilence. then i was like shit! sure say bout me de n true enough she started toking things that s obviously implying on me. it was like an rubbed in 4 mi. actually i wasnt really listening but then at least i managed to hear some things in my goggy state. (having fever at that time) then she started asking us to get into pairs to think bout an incident that happen to us that make never got the way we wanted than as usual no one came looking 4 mi so i kept to myself cutting the board behind. after the discussion she started asking ppl to share their experiences n unlucky enough she called me.so i siad what was true n told her that i nv disccused with anyone yet i was cutting the board behind. she started to flare up after she heard what i had said n started saying things that obviously she noe it wasnt true 4 mi.at that point of time i really really dont dared to face up n looked at her im really ashamed of myself.i kept to myself n read the next paper that she had given us then she slowly walked towards me telling me i was in the wrong n i knew i was wrong. she wanted me to face my problems n not running away frm it. but then certain things is not that easy to face up in such a short time. i noe wad she want me to do n i really is trying very hard to reach that. after she left i felt the urge to cry when then shi min came to comfort me but instead comforting me,because of her i started to cry but then at least she was there 4 me when i need her n i really appreciate it.now this i should thank God n tresure it nicely.haiz i noe i should try to be more optimistic n not the opposite.im trying very hard to do that to prove to her that i can do it.

sians...ever since fridae everything has been bad. for example fridae,early in the morning i got an very awful scolding frm my dad then i put it aside happily go to sch hoping things would change to the better. who knows, once i reach school i juz got to sit down ms sng ask syaz to pass me a letter regrading the results of the audition of "o" level music. seriously i totally forget bout it ever since the day b4 she told eugene. than really that letter really throw me down the building. y mus she give me that letter?? y? she had told me n i noe it but y mus she made it so clear to me that i didnt got in?? y? man thats not all, i went back to class with a really bad mood but still forcing myself to be strong n cheerful to hide away my feelings. i sat dowm at my seat thinking of that letter n the result i put my head over my table n seriously started weeping.its like the whole world had collasped on me wanting me to die.than at that particular time ms tan throw a stack of worksheet on my table wanting us to do the comprehension. at that point of time i really really don feel like doing anything except to cry. then i juz simply sae cher can don do i seriously dont feel like doing it after that incident. u noe wad, she started screaming at mi saying yin qi if u reallu don want to do it then fine don do it. yin qi i really sick of ur attitude do wadever u want. seriously that make my feeling even worse because she is the first tcher that really had cared 4 mi n i gave my utmost respect n really wadever she says really really weighs very heavy in me. i kept my face down don want her to c my face now but i heard eugene telling her something bout the letter i recieved this morning.but she dont really get it lar.although i've said that i don feel like doin it but i still did it lar im not that bad. after her lesson was ms lin's lesson im still trying very hard to keep my feeligs away but she always can feel my true feelings haiz she is really a good tcher. everything was beyond my control the day is goin to end le finally it is the last lesson of the day mr ng's lessons. i came in late bcoz i went to the toliet. i sat down then he started scolding me i din even sae anything he juz started scolding like crazy man then i seriously tolerate him until i cant tolerate n started to scold him n toking back at him. n the funny thing was this i donno how but desmond seems like he understand my feelings n started to defy him to he took out the lighter and started to burn the maths journal then i was like wow desmond burning that paper hahas...my day has been really really bad...

haiz wad the hell 2dae i step into the school with a veri hyper mood cause its like so long since i see my classmates hahas.

we have 3 straight free periods u noe frm dnt cool rite hahas im toking crap. haiz...then we have tat mr ng maths lesson it was like damn sian lar almost half of the class is fully asleep u noe.then it was recess n as usual, i went to find gretchen,then she went 2 find ms sng then haiz donno y she started telling her about mi cutting my hand.ITS LIKE WAD THE HELL LAR!!!!haiz then she started bombarding mi question bout y i do tis yi don tat???????haiz then WORSE STILL SHE SAE SHE WANTED 2 TELL MY FORM TCHER MS TAN BOUT IT.SHIT LEH AT TAT TIME I REALI WANTED TO SCREAM FUCKER WAD THE HACK SHIT LAR!!!!HAIZ SHE GD LAR JUZ BCOZ OF TAT I GOT LECTURE AND SO CALL COUNSELLED BY MS TAN AFTER SCH LAR AND IT IS ALMOST ONE HOUR OR EVEN MORE THAN THAT!!!HAIZ IM FUKING FEDUP WITH MY PARENTS OK TAT IS Y OK MY PARENTS DON EVEN TRUST MI OR HAVE A SINGLE RESPECT OF MY PRIVACY OK U NOE WAD TAT MAKES MI GO FEDUP? TAT IS THEY CHECK MY SMS OK TATS FINE OK BUT THEN WAD IS WORSE IS THEY EVEN TRACK MY CALL AND CALLED MY FRENS AND ASK THEM WHERE AM I. WAD THE HELL LAR HAIZ I NV SEEN B4 SUCH PARENTS WHO DON EVEN CARE BOUT THEIR CHILD'S PRIDE OR PRIVACY.

           hie,its been long since the last time i updated this space.

       haiz...on 26 october i went 2 watch death note wif my frens n my stead.

          tat show is reali veri nice but then 1 thing before i went in the cinema i saw my senoir kaili, n then the worst thing is she is oso watchin death note.

     i noe durin the show she is the one hu laugh the loudest.haiz actually dere is one part in the movie tat reali freak mi out tat is the time wen tat FBI shot light's girlfren it is in the art gallery u noe the gallery is almost empty then wen she shoot dere is echo then is veri loud veri scary.

   then juz 2dae i went 2 watch the convenant.

   it is oso a nice show the boys in the show oso veri handsome but then the best part is they processed powers.

    how i wish i was one of them they were so cool man.

actually i wanted 2 watch the collic but then cant cause it is nc 16 haiz.

   actually dere is nth 4 mi 2 sae now my life has always been a simple n torturin 1.